What happens when fear strangles the relationship? I'm with Mr. Mysterious and everything is going so well. But at the same exact time, it is going so poorly. He is wonderful at creating the solidity of the relationship. For instance, the puppy and bringing his daughter over during the week. So I feel "so secure". However, I started to realize that I have been so attached to him. So dependent on him, the complete opposite of what I usually find myself doing. Or what I hate other woman for doing. I felt the need for some space, some freedom to deal with the mess I'm in all by myself. What am I afraid of? Obviously Mr. Mysterious leaving. His distance, although justified, is not only him putting up walls it is also me moving them to a more comfortable distance from me. I can't be this person, who is so dependent on a man. So needy and wanting.
Because of the need to have a car ride early in the morning, and the lack of positivity in my life, I needed something. Desperately. When Mr. Mysterious didn't pull through (Due to bro-pro support necessity) I had limited opportunities left.
I happen to be in a need of someone. It happened to end up being the last guy that stole my heart, Mr. Man. I played my cards, and had to put myself out there to allow him to respond. Not emotionally of course, however, I had to tell him what I had done. Keep in mind, I didn't need him, just a ride, and therefore, I had a need.
Now, and experiment is in progress. Does the new guy care that the old guy is coming to the rescue? Nope, hopefully just because he is secure in his idea of our relationship. In reality, the experiment is still pending.
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